that tired feeling that not even sleep can fix
what else can i lose this year? honestly have lost so many things and people who have meant so much to me already in 2012 and it isnt even half way through the year. best friend? gone. mother? gone. and the list honestly goes on. yes, i do feel like ive changed.. in a way for the good, but in so many others ways bad. why do i let people treat me like complete shit? why do i let people make me feel guilty for things i dont even do. its really hard trying to smile and act like im okay. meanwhile with just one little wrong word, i can feel my defense wall come crashing down. not only have i hurt people, but so many people have hurt me. im sad, i really am.
i really need to get a journal. seeing as twitter is too public and too many people will see what i write, i decide to vent here.
